Growing up in the Sea Org

Hard labour, harsh discipline and scarely any time with her parents: the niece of Scientology's leader David Miscavige has just published a memoir on her childhood inside the movement.

When Jenna Miscavige Hill first broke cover in 2008, growing numbers of former members were beginning to talk about their experience inside the Sea Organization, Scientology's elite cadre.

For the most part however, they were talking in the chat rooms, on the message boards – and they were using pseudonyms. Even those of them who had spoken to journalists and academics were not yet ready to be identified: they feared the backlash from Scientology.

Hill's open letter, initially published on the Internet then picked up by the mainstream news media, helped change all that.

Jenna Miscavige Hill is the niece of Scientology's current leader David Miscavige. Her father, Ronald Miscavige, is the Chairman of the Board's older brother.

So when she spoke up, she was difficult to ignore.

In January 2008 Karin Pouw, Scientology's PR flak, had launched a withering attack on Andrew Morton's recently published biography book Tom Cruise: an Unauthorized Biography.¹

At one point in her 15-page denunciation, she dismissed any suggestion that Scientology “encouraged” – as she put it – disconnection.

“This allegation is not only false,” Pouw insisted, “it is the opposite of what the Church believes and practices...”

Disconnection is the movement's policy obliging members to cut off all contact with anyone declared an enemy of the movement: friends, family – anyone.²

Pouw's blanket denial was too much for Hill. In her response, she pointed out she had personal experience of disconnection, for when her parents had quit the movement and she, at first, had stayed behind.

Not only that, she added:

I can name at least five friends off the top of my head whose family members are not allowed to speak to them without being themselves ousted from the Church and prevented from communicating with other members of their family and even their children still involved in the Church lest THEY too be ousted!...

This is a widespread practice and if you dare deny it I have a list of all of their names together – these people's families are crying every day because they can't speak to their children who did nothing but leave the Church of their own free will.³

Following Hill's broadside, the floodgates opened and other former Sea Org members started speaking out on the record.

I covered Hill's open letter at the time and soon afterwards she provided me with more details of her childhood inside Scientology. At the time, I did not have an outlet for that material (it was a year before the 2009 launch of this website).

Now however Infinite Complacency is happy to be able to run some extracts of her account – a beta version, if you like, of her new book, Beyond Belief: My Secret Life Inside Scientology and My Harrowing Escape.

Happy Valley

Hill wrote that while in her letter to Pouw she had focussed on the issue of disconnection, “...the real issue goes far beyond that.

“Even when I was not 'disconnected' my interaction with my family was blighted to say the least. From the age of five, I was only allowed to see my parents once a week,” she wrote.

Hill's parents were in the Sea Organization, Scientology's elite cadre.

As Sea Org members, they had signed a billion-year contract to serve the movement in this life and for countless generations thereafter. Nor was this in any way symbolic.

Scientology founder L. Ron Hubbard taught that we all have immortal souls that travel from one “meat body” to the next. So once you were done with one life you would be expected to report for duty in the next.

And her parents were not the only ones to have signed up.

“I signed a billion-year contract when I was seven years old – and again when I was 12,” wrote Jenna.

“There was a Ranch about 20 miles away from the Scientology Headquarters in Hemet. This was known as 'Happy Valley' or later renamed as 'Castile Canyon Ranch School'.

“The property was many acres, it just had a couple of building when I first got there, no roads even, just a dirt road. The children of all of the members went there. It was a boarding school. We all lived there in adjoining dormitories.

“There were seven girls in my dorm and it was adjoined to another dormitory of seven girls by a communal sink and single shower. We shared these facilities. The children who were there ranged from age 5-18.

“We wore uniforms with red shirts and khaki pants. We were there all week and all weekend aside from the few hours on Sunday morning where we were allowed to spend time with our parents...”

Ethics and ice water

This was their daily schedule, wrote Jenna:

6:30 – Wake up time. Clean berthing, get dressed.

7:00 – Muster.

We would all stand in lines according to what unit we were in. Each unit had an in-charge whom we would call “sir”. They would take roll.

Taking roll consisted of someone at the front of the group going to each unit and saluting the unit in-charge and saying, "Unit ____ report!" to which the other child would salute back and say, "all present and accounted for sir" and then they would move on to the next line.

Bear in mind that some of the kids here were as young as five years old.

During the muster, wrote Jenna, they would have to stand at “attention”, unless it was “parade rest”.

Their uniforms would be inspected. Their dormitories would be inspected. And if you were late, if you failed an inspection, you would be hauled up in front of the group.

“Sometimes if you were late for the muster you would be dumped with a five-gallon bucket of ice water. You would also get a chit in your ethics folder – everyone had an ethics folder.”

An ethics folder in Scientology, is a little more than the gold-star/black-mark report card in a regular school.

In Scientology, your ethical standing inside the movement is crucial because there are severe penalties if you slip too low down the scale.

Another former Sea Org member John Peeler recalls that during his childhood inside Scientology, when he attended a Scientology-approved school, they had an ethics officer keeping them in line.

Not only that, the children themselves were enouraged to write Knowledge Reports denouncing any of their peers they thought had broken Scientology's rules.

“These are children being taught at a very young age to write knowledge reports on other students and keep a ‘watchful’ eye on others,” Peeler told Infinite Complacency. “Kids would even be heard saying, ‘Ohhhh, you’re going to Ethics!’.”⁴

And all of this was set out in Hubbard's writings, said Peeler.

Drill time

7:00 -7:30 – Drill time.

We would literally do military drills during this time, known as "close-order training", where we would stand in lines, march, salute and stand in different military positions, do "right face!", "left face", "march!", "company halt!".

There were also fire drills, for which everyone had an assigned duty: evacuate the buildings, operate the fire hoses, roll the hose back up again afterwards.

“We were required to do this within certain time limits, or we had to do it over and over again. Sometimes we were told to line up by age, height, shoes size, etc., and we were timed.”

7:30-8:30 - Post. Everyone had a different post. Mine consisted of making a list of every illness anyone had whether is was a cold or the flu. Then I was supposed to hand out vitamins to everyone.

8:30 - Breakfast. We ate in a mess hall and everyone had assigned seating and your table was called a mess.

Each mess has a mess president and a treasurer. Each week someone at the mess would be the steward, which means that you would show up early to set up the table and were responsible for making sure all the food was at the table.

8:30-8:45 - Clean up, we all had assigned cleaning stations for the dining hall. Some people were responsible for cleaning dishes - I was responsible for sweeping the floor in one of the halls. These cleaning stations frequently changed, but everyone had one.

If all of this sounds little more than Hogwarts without the spells, wait up.

Hard labour

8:45-9:00 - Another muster with roll. At this muster we were assigned labor projects in units.

9:00-12:45 - Projects. These projects consisted of such things as rock hauling from the creek in order to make rock walls, weeding large fields, planting ice plant, digging rows for large fields, irrigating large fields, raking the horse coral for the horse manure, etc.

“This is how the Ranch became a very beautiful place,” wrote Jenna.

“But we did all the work.

“From lacquering our own dressers and beds, to planting the gardens and trees, harvesting the crops, building the green houses, etc.

“About once a week these projects included going to the main Scientology headquarters and helping out in the crew galley or the bakery and at one point even helping in the manufacturing of the electropsychometers... [the devices Scientologists use during their auditing, or therapy sessions].

“Each project was assigned an in-charge and was written out in exact steps that had to be completed.

“We responded to the project in-charge as "sir" or "Mr….." even if it was a female and even if they were 9 years old.”

12:45-1:00 - Muster. We then met up in our lines in our units and took roll and everyone announced where they stood on their projects.

1:00-1:30 - Lunch.

1:30-1:45 - Dining room clean-up time.

1:45 - Class roll call. Our names were all called out here to which we were to respond “Aye Sir!” or else we would be screamed at. "Here Sir" was also acceptable.

Study Tech

“We had several adult teachers who were not certified teachers, they were just members of the Church who had been assigned to the Ranch...,” wrote Hill.

“We all had a curriculum that we had to complete before we would graduate and join the organization as members with our parents.”

But they used Hubbard's own system of learning: Study Technology, or Study Tech, which was geared more to Scientology's needs rather than those of the children.

“We had what were called 'checksheets': these are lists of materials to study and practical exercises we had to, in order to complete a certain grade, so to speak,” wrote Jenna.

“These were such checksheets as – 'How to make a bed course'; 'How to ride a bike course' (you had to pass a driving test with all hand signals before you were allowed to ride one); 'Shakespeare Course'; then of course Math, Geography and so on.

“There were no grades.”

And like any good Scientologist, they never went past a misunderstood word. For one of the golden rules in the Hubbard's system of learning, which he called Study Tech, is the following axiom.

The only reason a person gives up a study or becomes confused or unable to learn is because he or she has gone past a word that was not understood.⁵

And that applied just as much to the kids, Jenna recalled.

“After we read some material, we had to get a checkout which meant another child would ask us what the definitions of various words were in our textbook or material including small common words such as 'it', 'the', etc.

“If we so much as hesitated one second or about the meaning of the work, we had to look up the word, definition by definition – use it in several sentences to improve our understanding and then look up the derivation of the word.

“Then we would have to re-read the entire book or article again and receive another checkout.”

The trouble with this kind of mind-numbing rote learning is it is just that: mind-numbing.

Dave Touretzky and Chris Owen, veteran critics of Scientology, put it best in their critique of Hubbard's Study Technology.

Study Tech’s focus on misunderstood words is not just some arbitrary bit of educational dogma. It is an intentional and effective device for suppressing critical thought. In effect, it atomizes language, divorcing words from concepts.

The same words might appear in a Shakespearean sonnet or an L. Ron Hubbard bulletin but their collective meaning might be very different. The words themselves may be perfectly comprehensible but their meaning may not be. The context is stripped away, leaving the words to be studied in isolation.

But a student cannot ascertain context from isolated words, any more than she could ascertain the design of a house from individual bricks. The most outlandish concepts can thereby be presented in a way that compels word-by-word acceptance.⁶

A good example of this jumps off the page at the end of Chapter 1 of Going Clear, Lawrence Wright's new book on Scientology.

Wright explains Paul Haggis bewildered reaction when he finally got to study OT III: when he broke through the Wall of Fire to discover the space opera at the heart of Scientology.

After a few minutes, Haggis returned to the supervisor.

“I don't understand,” Haggis said.

“Do you know the words?”

“I know the words, I just don't understand.”

“Go back and read it again,” the supervisor suggested.

Haggis did so. In a moment, he returned. “Is this a metaphor?” he asked.

“No,” the supervisor responded. “It is what it is. Do the actions that are required.”

Maybe it's an insanity test, Haggis thought – if you believe it, you're automatically kicked out...⁷

If only.

Clay models

As part of their education, Jenna and her fellow Sea Org children also employed another feature of Hubbard's Study Technology: the use of clay models.

“Someone would have to come over and guess what it was – and if they could not guess then we would do it again,” Jenna wrote.

Here again, Hubbard manages to reduce a common-sense idea to absurdity: Owen and Touretzky put their finger on the problem.

“In secular terminology we would call this 'making a model',” they write.

And while such activities are certainly beneficial at times, the authors of the Study Tech books [approved Scientology texts drawing on Hubbard's writings] seem to have no clue about when models are appropriate and when they’re not...

Whether religious or not, the use of a clay table is a clearly a simple-minded approach to understanding abstract concepts. Rather than promoting understanding, it seems much more likely that clay tables work – assuming that they work at all – as a visual memory aid...

That is fine if the only goal is the accurate recitation of rote-learned facts. This is, in fact, the only goal that Hubbard was interested in with his Scientology students.

But it is useless in developing the critical skills that are so necessary in the non-Scientology world, and that Hubbard was so conspicuously uninterested in encouraging.⁸

And on into the night...

If the morning's labours had not been enough to keep them in shape, the Sea Org kids also had physical education in the afternoon, Jenna recalled.

4:00-4:45 – PE, This was where somedays we played sports, but twice a week we were all required to run a mile and pass a physical fitness test by doing a certain amount of push-ups and pull ups, etc.

4:45-5:00 – Break. This is where we could go to the canteen and get food. But no sugar was allowed, so everything there was 100% sugar free, even the chewing gum. We would have to pay for the food out of our allowance which was $5 per week. But they also gave out oranges, etc for free.

5:00-6:00 – Class continues.

6:00-6:30 – Dinner.

6:30-6:45 – Clean up dining room.

6:45 – Class roll.

6:45-9:00- Scientology studies. Here we would take the communications course and other such courses that taught us about Scientology and how to do volunteer minister assists, etc., and we would practice these on stuffed animals, etc.

Jenna took care to underline this point: “We would study until 9:00 at night when we were under 12!”

9:00-9:30 – Take showers, get ready for bed.

9:30 – Lights out!

“This was every single day of the week, with the exception of Saturday and Sunday,” wrote Jenna.

Weekends

So what did they do on their time off?

“On Saturday we had no class and instead in the morning we were required to, 'white glove' our rooms, which meant that we were to do such a thorough cleaning that we had to pass an inspection with one of the adults going over all surfaces with a white glove – literally.

“We had to pass this inspection by one of the teachers before we could have breakfast.”

In the afternoon, it was back doing hard labour instead of study (such as it was), wrote Jenna.

“Then in the evening instead of scientology studies we would have to white-glove all of the other buildings on the property such as the mess hall, the offices, the school house, the maintenance shed, etc.

“They would have to pass an inspection before we could go to sleep.”

The white-glove inspections were an echo of the early days of the Sea Org, when it was actually at sea under Hubbard's command. It also reflects what became Hubbard's increasing obsession with cleanliness.⁹

And then there was family time.

“On Sunday morning until noon we were allowed to see our parents,” wrote Jenna.

“During this time we were allowed to wear civilian clothes or 'civvies' as we called them. We had to change back into our uniforms at noon and the rest of that day continues as usual.

“We all had assigned jobs and assigned 'seniors' who were also children. We were required to keep exact specifics of our completed jobs as a statistic and mark it on a graph.

“We were also required to write down all transgressions and withholds which is basically any time we did something bad or similar to a sin in the Catholic religion.

“After writing them all down we would receive a meter check (on the electropsychometer) to make sure we weren't hiding anything and you would have to keep writing until you came up clean.

“This is from the age of 5 until I was 12,” she wrote.

“What happened after that is equally unbelievable.”

And doubtless that's all in the book.

Other voices

The sad thing about the details Jenna related here is that former members have been denouncing these practices – and worse – for years now.

In a March 22, 1994 affidavit, former Scientologist Stacy Brooks Young had this to say about what she had witnessed.

“Children are being kept at camps, away from their parents for weeks at a time. Parents who ask to see their children more than this are frowned upon; children are considered 'distractions' to production.”¹⁰

But nobody in authority was listening.

Former members who grew up in the movement such as John Peeler have had similar stories to tell about their youth inside the movement.

So too has Astra Woodcraft, who with Hill and Kendra Wiseman set up the Ex-Scientology Kids website.

In a statement there, she summed up what she and many other children had had to endure.

“My experience as a child growing up in the world of Scientology is not something that I would wish on anyone,” wrote Woodcraft.¹¹

No child should be subject to sleep deprivation, grueling physical labor and intense psychological abuse. No child should be denied an education or denied contact with their family.

Unfortunately, all of these things were the norm for me and other kids who grow up in Scientology's military like organization called the Sea Organization.

I was forced to work 80+ hours a week. I was regularly yelled at and threatened. I was not allowed to make phone calls or leave the building without permission. I was not allowed to see my family.

I was married at 15 and ran away, pregnant with my daughter at the age of 19. Scientology officials chased me down and attempted to convince me to have an abortion.

My own family, as well as many others has been torn apart due to Scientology's practice of disconnection.

My daughter's father who remains in Scientology has never been a part of her life because of his beliefs. She... has grown up without a father because of Scientology.

My mother and grandmother have refused contact with me since I left the organization.¹²

Which brings us full circle back to disconnection, the practice that Scientology Pouw denied existed inside the movement.

Old souls in young bodies

Why would any parent accept this kind of life for their children?

Partly because of what Hubbard taught about the nature of children – and how to treat them.

Hubbard said that children should be treated like adults because they are old souls in young bodies. And one way he put this into practice was setting up children over adults.¹³

Hubbard's Messengers, teenage acolytes who ran his errands, were trained to deliver his orders – and other Scientologists were expected to behave as if Hubbard in person had commanded them.

But the flipside of letting children act like tyrants, was robbing them of their childhood.

To date, the authorities in the United States have taken no action to stop what, on the face of it, looks like the criminal neglect of children inside Scientology.

Jenna's book will at least make it that little bit harder to ignore.

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1“Church of Scientology statement: Andrew Morton's Unauthorized Biography of Tom Cruise” issued January 14, 2008.

2Note Pouw's use of the word “encourage”. In fact, Scientology forces its members to disconnect from anyone declared an enemy, or “suppressive person”, in the movement's parlance – if they disobey they face being declared suppressive themselves. For details, see my summary of this policy in Disconnection: an Introducion, elsewhere on this site. And for a particularly egregious example of disconnection, see “The Hendersons' Story”.

3I gave more details of this in a previous post announcing her book project, “And Jenna makes Three”, in which I showed how her open letter encouraged others to go on the record. (As it turned out, there were more than three books in the pipeline: as well as Lawrence Wright's book Going Clear and Tony Ortega's project, there was John Sweeney's book The Church of Fear, published last month; and the new edition of Jon Atack's A Piece of Blue Sky, due out any day now. And I know of at least one more book in the works).

4See “John Peeler's Story”, elsewhere on this site.

5This sentence is set out in italics for emphasis in most of the Scientology books I have. According to Dave Touretzky and Chris Owen, in their critique of Hubbard's system (see following note) it was originally printed in BLOCK CAPITALS on page 282 of Hubbard's How to Use a Dictionary.

6From Chris Owen and Professor Dave Touretzky's Scientology’s Study Technology: The Hidden Message in L. Ron Hubbard’s “Study Tech”. Owen had already distinguished himself with his dissection of Hubbard's false claims to war heroism (see his online study “Ron the War Hero”, which you can find at this invaluable resource page). Touretzky, a research professor in computer science at Carnegie Mellon University, has a particularly low tolerance of Hubbard's pseudo-scientific charlatanism. His critiques of the Hubbard's Study Tech; the Narconon centres running Hubbard's dangerous addiction treatment system; and of the e-meter itself, an essential prop in Scientology auditing, repay careful reading.

7From Chapter One, The Convert, page 19 of Lawrence Wright's Going Clear: Scientology, Hollywood and the Prison of Belief, by Lawrence Wright. (Alfred A. Knopf, 2013).

8From Scientology’s Study Technology: The Hidden Message in L. Ron Hubbard’s “Study Tech” by Chris Owen and Professor Dave Touretzky. Jenna added: “We also were "meter checked" on an electropsychometer once a day being asked if we went past any words we didn't understand in our materials.” But let's not get started on the problems of the e-meter or we'll be here all day.

9Here is how Scientology's Modern Management Technology Defined puts it: “White Glove Inspection, consists of putting on white gloves and running them over surfaces, ladders, bulkheads, shelves, etc. If the gloves get dirt the inspection is not passed...”

Tonja Burden served as one of Hubbard's personal servants, or Messengers, on board the Apollo in the early 1970s. In a January 25, 1980 affidavit, she explained what that meant in practice.

“Cabins had to meet white glove inspection. This meant a white glove or Q-tip was used to check corners and shelves of each cabin for dust. If the cabins were not cleaned to white-glove perfection, I had to run a lap around the boat before recleaning the room. A lap was equivalent to about one-fifth of a mile. My day would end about 12:00 midnight.”

10The fact that Stacy Brooks Young has gone back on some of her previous testimony is neither here nor there. The accounts given by Hill and several other former children of Sea Org members corroborate this account.

11ESK comment for the media.

12Astra Woodcraft describes in more detail her experiences growing up inside Scientology in this January 2007 affidavit.

13One Scientology website puts it this way: “Children are thetans occupying small bodies, a crucial datum that provides the only perspective from which they can be understood.” From New Era Publication's page advertising Hubbard's Child Scientology. My thanks to Caroline Letkeman for drawing this to my attention.

And Jenna makes three...

Jenna Hill, the niece of Scientology leader David Miscavige, is to publish a memoir of her life in the movement. If it's anything like the devastating open letter she wrote to the movement in 2008, they need to batten down the hatches.

And Jenna makes three...

First there was the book project on Scientology announced by Pulitzer-prize winning journalist Lawrence Wright following his devastating New Yorker article on celebrity defector the film maker Paul Haggis.

Then Tony Ortega, who towards the end of his five-and-a-half years stint as editor-in-chief at Village Voice wrote a column on Scientology that became essential reading for anyone following the movement, quit his day job.

He too is off to write a book on Scientology, with a trailerload of goodwill from the ex-member community – and a full contacts book.

But now it seems that Jenna Hill, the niece of the movement's current leader, is going to beat them both to print.

Hill is getting ready to publish a memoir of her childhood inside Scientology – and how she rebuilt her life as an adult outside the movement.

Beyond Belief: My Life in and out of Scientology, published by William Morrow, is due out in January next year.

Jenna first went public about Scientology in January 2008, when Scientology was busy trying to rubbish Andrew Morton's recently released Tom Cruise: an Unauthorized Biography.

Jenna took exception to a 15-page denunciation of Morton's book in which Scientology spokeswoman Karin Pouw dismissed it as a “bigoted defamatory assault replete with lies”.

One thing in particular outraged her.

Pouw had categorically denied that the movement forced members to break off contact with relatives considered hostile to the movement.

This practice, known as disconnetion, means former members who have either quit or been cast out of Scientology lose all contact with loved ones still inside.

Jenna knew from personal experience that this particular claim was a lie.

As you well know, my parents officially left the Church when I was 16 in 2000, she wrote to Pouw in a January 2008 open letter.

I, having been separated from them at the age of 12 and thoroughly engulfed in the beliefs of the Church since birth decided not to go with them.

Not only was I not allowed to speak to them, I was not allowed to answer a phone for well over a year, in case it was them calling me.

Her letters were intercepted, she wrote, and passed on to senior executives.¹

Only after they had seen the letters and decided it was ok for me to see them would I receive some of them while sitting in a board room while they watched me read them and asked me to comment on them, she continued.

Between the ages of 16 and 22, she wrote, she was allowed to visit her parents once a year, for a maximum of three to four days – even that was only after her parents had threatened legal action if Scientology tried to prevent it.

Even then, she wrote, she had to submit to a “Security Check Confessional” before the visit and immediately after her return.

That involved being questioned about if she intended leaving Scientology; and whether her parents had said anything bad about the movement.

During these interrogations, she was hooked up to one of Scientology's electropsychometer, or e-meters, the deviced used in the movement's auditing, or therapy sessions.

On this occasion though, they served a different purpose. Hill described the e-meter as “similar to a lie detector”.

This happened every time she visited her parents, she wrote.

Disconnection is compulsory

Jenna went on to give examples of how Scientology's leader David Miscavige, her own uncle, had effectively torn his own family apart by enforcing the disconnection policy.

For as per policy, relatives still inside the movement had announced they wanted no further contact with those who had left – regardless of whether they were openly critical of Scientology.

As I have explained in detail elsewhere on this site, disconnection is not the freely taken choice of any Scientologist: it is a compulsory measure taken against anyone the movement designates as beyond the pale.

One sentence from Introduction to Scientology Ethics, by the movement's founder L. Ron Hubbard, spells it out. For among the high crimes Hubbard listed for which one can be declared a Suppressive Person and cast out of the movement, is the following offence:

Failure to handle or disavow and disconnect from a person demonstrably guilty of suppressive acts.²

Hubbard’s disconnection policy, which he first introduced in 1965, was so controversial and attracted so much negative publicity that he cancelled it in 1968.

But it was gradually reintroduced in the 1970s and was fully reinstated in a September 10 1983 policy letter.³

In her 2008 open letter Jenna went on: I can name at least five friends off the top of my head [whose] family members are not allowed to speak to them without being themselves ousted from the Church and prevented from communicating with other members of their family and even their children still involved in the Church lest THEY too be ousted!

These were people who could not speak to their own children because they had quit Scientology, she wrote.

This is a widespread practice … these people's families are crying every day because they can't speak to their children who did nothing but leave the Church of their own free will.

Jenna closed her letter with a suggestion – an appeal, almost – that the movement divert its energy from attacking its perceived enemies to repairing the damage wrought by disconnection – starting with the family of David Miscavige himself.

Hell, if Scientology can't keep his family together – then why on earth should anyone believe the Church helps bring families together!

It was powerful stuff and at the time emboldened a lot of other Scientologists who were still hesitating to speak out – but it had no discernible effect on Scientology policy.

For as the relevant news groups and Internet forums confirm on an almost daily basis, Scientology enforces disconnection with the same ruthless efficiency as it ever did.

Ex Scientology Kids

Jenna was one of those who in 2008, along with Astra Woodcraft and Kendra Wiseman, set up the Ex-Scientology Kids website (“I was born. I grew up. I escaped.”)

ESK has influenced a range of people, including ex-members who went on to become one of the movement's leading critics.

Jeff Hawkins spent 35 years inside Scientology – most of his adult life – before joining the recent wave of defectors and rebuilding his life.

He credits ESK for having finally convinced him to speak out.

As he put it at his blog, Counterfeit Dreams: “You could say they shamed me into it.

“If they were willing to put their names on the line and face whatever Scientology dished out, then what was I afraid of?”⁴

ESK attracted an eclectic mix of visitors including second-generation members who, like the site's founders, had since quit the movement.

Many of them took the time to tell their often quite distressing stories.

And the website received floods of correspondence – and not just from former members. Other readers wrote in to tell them how the site had opened their eyes to Scientology's abusive nature.

In recent years however, its levels of activity have fallen off dramatically (Kendra, for one, has moved on to other things). It was also the target of some quite ferocious spamming that for a while made it all but unusable.

But a visit to the site shows recent signs of life: both Jenna and Astra have updated their media profiles.

And both take the time to express their solidarity with Katie Holmes, the most high-profile defector from the movement, who this summer ended her five-year marriage to Tom Cruise.

Media reports have suggested that Holmes was determined to prevent daughter Suri from being drawn further into Scientology.

And Jenna writes: “As a mother myself, I offer my support to Katie and wish for her all of the strength she will need to do what is best for her and her daughter.”

My experience in growing up in Scientology is that it is both mentally and at times physically abusive.

I was allowed to see my parents only once a week at best – sometimes not for years.

We got a lousy education from unqualified teachers, forced labor, long hours, forced confessions, being held in rooms not to mention the mental anguish of trying to figure out all of the conflicting information they force upon you as a young child...

While it is very unlikely that Suri Cruise would have the same upbringing as me (due to her parent's celebrity status), any organization that is capable of mistreating and neglecting the needs of children, regardless of their social status, and which has a long history of breaking up families is no place for an innocent child.

Amazon – and no doubt other outlets – are already taking prepublication orders for her book.

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1 Ironically, these senior executives were Marty Rathbun and Mike Rinder – who themselves have since quit the movement. They are now leading figures in what has become known as the Independent Scientology movement which still accepts the value of Scientology, but rejects the regime as it is run by David Miscavige. See Rathbun's blog Moving Up a Little Higher, to which Rinder is an occasional contributor.

2 From Chapter Seven of An Introduction to Scientology Ethics. But this originally came from a December 23 1965 Hubbard Communications Office Policy Letter, “Suppressive Acts Suppression of Scientology and Scientologists” – so it can hardly be said to be a corruption of Hubbard’s policies by the current leader Miscavige.

3 “An Ethics Officer can encounter a situation where someone is factually connected to a Suppressive Person, in present time,” wrote Hubbard.

“This is a person whose normal operating basis is one of making others smaller, less able, less powerful. He does not want anyone to get better, at all.

“In truth, an SP is absolutely, completely terrified of anyone becoming more powerful. In such an instance the PTS isn't going to get anywhere trying to handle the person. The answer is to sever the connection.”

“PTSness and Disconnection”, September 10, 1983.

4 Counterfeit Dreams remains one of the best accounts by a former members of his time inside and is also available as a book.