And Jenna makes three...

Jenna Hill, the niece of Scientology leader David Miscavige, is to publish a memoir of her life in the movement. If it's anything like the devastating open letter she wrote to the movement in 2008, they need to batten down the hatches.

And Jenna makes three...

First there was the book project on Scientology announced by Pulitzer-prize winning journalist Lawrence Wright following his devastating New Yorker article on celebrity defector the film maker Paul Haggis.

Then Tony Ortega, who towards the end of his five-and-a-half years stint as editor-in-chief at Village Voice wrote a column on Scientology that became essential reading for anyone following the movement, quit his day job.

He too is off to write a book on Scientology, with a trailerload of goodwill from the ex-member community – and a full contacts book.

But now it seems that Jenna Hill, the niece of the movement's current leader, is going to beat them both to print.

Hill is getting ready to publish a memoir of her childhood inside Scientology – and how she rebuilt her life as an adult outside the movement.

Beyond Belief: My Life in and out of Scientology, published by William Morrow, is due out in January next year.

Jenna first went public about Scientology in January 2008, when Scientology was busy trying to rubbish Andrew Morton's recently released Tom Cruise: an Unauthorized Biography.

Jenna took exception to a 15-page denunciation of Morton's book in which Scientology spokeswoman Karin Pouw dismissed it as a “bigoted defamatory assault replete with lies”.

One thing in particular outraged her.

Pouw had categorically denied that the movement forced members to break off contact with relatives considered hostile to the movement.

This practice, known as disconnetion, means former members who have either quit or been cast out of Scientology lose all contact with loved ones still inside.

Jenna knew from personal experience that this particular claim was a lie.

As you well know, my parents officially left the Church when I was 16 in 2000, she wrote to Pouw in a January 2008 open letter.

I, having been separated from them at the age of 12 and thoroughly engulfed in the beliefs of the Church since birth decided not to go with them.

Not only was I not allowed to speak to them, I was not allowed to answer a phone for well over a year, in case it was them calling me.

Her letters were intercepted, she wrote, and passed on to senior executives.¹

Only after they had seen the letters and decided it was ok for me to see them would I receive some of them while sitting in a board room while they watched me read them and asked me to comment on them, she continued.

Between the ages of 16 and 22, she wrote, she was allowed to visit her parents once a year, for a maximum of three to four days – even that was only after her parents had threatened legal action if Scientology tried to prevent it.

Even then, she wrote, she had to submit to a “Security Check Confessional” before the visit and immediately after her return.

That involved being questioned about if she intended leaving Scientology; and whether her parents had said anything bad about the movement.

During these interrogations, she was hooked up to one of Scientology's electropsychometer, or e-meters, the deviced used in the movement's auditing, or therapy sessions.

On this occasion though, they served a different purpose. Hill described the e-meter as “similar to a lie detector”.

This happened every time she visited her parents, she wrote.

Disconnection is compulsory

Jenna went on to give examples of how Scientology's leader David Miscavige, her own uncle, had effectively torn his own family apart by enforcing the disconnection policy.

For as per policy, relatives still inside the movement had announced they wanted no further contact with those who had left – regardless of whether they were openly critical of Scientology.

As I have explained in detail elsewhere on this site, disconnection is not the freely taken choice of any Scientologist: it is a compulsory measure taken against anyone the movement designates as beyond the pale.

One sentence from Introduction to Scientology Ethics, by the movement's founder L. Ron Hubbard, spells it out. For among the high crimes Hubbard listed for which one can be declared a Suppressive Person and cast out of the movement, is the following offence:

Failure to handle or disavow and disconnect from a person demonstrably guilty of suppressive acts.²

Hubbard’s disconnection policy, which he first introduced in 1965, was so controversial and attracted so much negative publicity that he cancelled it in 1968.

But it was gradually reintroduced in the 1970s and was fully reinstated in a September 10 1983 policy letter.³

In her 2008 open letter Jenna went on: I can name at least five friends off the top of my head [whose] family members are not allowed to speak to them without being themselves ousted from the Church and prevented from communicating with other members of their family and even their children still involved in the Church lest THEY too be ousted!

These were people who could not speak to their own children because they had quit Scientology, she wrote.

This is a widespread practice … these people's families are crying every day because they can't speak to their children who did nothing but leave the Church of their own free will.

Jenna closed her letter with a suggestion – an appeal, almost – that the movement divert its energy from attacking its perceived enemies to repairing the damage wrought by disconnection – starting with the family of David Miscavige himself.

Hell, if Scientology can't keep his family together – then why on earth should anyone believe the Church helps bring families together!

It was powerful stuff and at the time emboldened a lot of other Scientologists who were still hesitating to speak out – but it had no discernible effect on Scientology policy.

For as the relevant news groups and Internet forums confirm on an almost daily basis, Scientology enforces disconnection with the same ruthless efficiency as it ever did.

Ex Scientology Kids

Jenna was one of those who in 2008, along with Astra Woodcraft and Kendra Wiseman, set up the Ex-Scientology Kids website (“I was born. I grew up. I escaped.”)

ESK has influenced a range of people, including ex-members who went on to become one of the movement's leading critics.

Jeff Hawkins spent 35 years inside Scientology – most of his adult life – before joining the recent wave of defectors and rebuilding his life.

He credits ESK for having finally convinced him to speak out.

As he put it at his blog, Counterfeit Dreams: “You could say they shamed me into it.

“If they were willing to put their names on the line and face whatever Scientology dished out, then what was I afraid of?”⁴

ESK attracted an eclectic mix of visitors including second-generation members who, like the site's founders, had since quit the movement.

Many of them took the time to tell their often quite distressing stories.

And the website received floods of correspondence – and not just from former members. Other readers wrote in to tell them how the site had opened their eyes to Scientology's abusive nature.

In recent years however, its levels of activity have fallen off dramatically (Kendra, for one, has moved on to other things). It was also the target of some quite ferocious spamming that for a while made it all but unusable.

But a visit to the site shows recent signs of life: both Jenna and Astra have updated their media profiles.

And both take the time to express their solidarity with Katie Holmes, the most high-profile defector from the movement, who this summer ended her five-year marriage to Tom Cruise.

Media reports have suggested that Holmes was determined to prevent daughter Suri from being drawn further into Scientology.

And Jenna writes: “As a mother myself, I offer my support to Katie and wish for her all of the strength she will need to do what is best for her and her daughter.”

My experience in growing up in Scientology is that it is both mentally and at times physically abusive.

I was allowed to see my parents only once a week at best – sometimes not for years.

We got a lousy education from unqualified teachers, forced labor, long hours, forced confessions, being held in rooms not to mention the mental anguish of trying to figure out all of the conflicting information they force upon you as a young child...

While it is very unlikely that Suri Cruise would have the same upbringing as me (due to her parent's celebrity status), any organization that is capable of mistreating and neglecting the needs of children, regardless of their social status, and which has a long history of breaking up families is no place for an innocent child.

Amazon – and no doubt other outlets – are already taking prepublication orders for her book.

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1 Ironically, these senior executives were Marty Rathbun and Mike Rinder – who themselves have since quit the movement. They are now leading figures in what has become known as the Independent Scientology movement which still accepts the value of Scientology, but rejects the regime as it is run by David Miscavige. See Rathbun's blog Moving Up a Little Higher, to which Rinder is an occasional contributor.

2 From Chapter Seven of An Introduction to Scientology Ethics. But this originally came from a December 23 1965 Hubbard Communications Office Policy Letter, “Suppressive Acts Suppression of Scientology and Scientologists” – so it can hardly be said to be a corruption of Hubbard’s policies by the current leader Miscavige.

3 “An Ethics Officer can encounter a situation where someone is factually connected to a Suppressive Person, in present time,” wrote Hubbard.

“This is a person whose normal operating basis is one of making others smaller, less able, less powerful. He does not want anyone to get better, at all.

“In truth, an SP is absolutely, completely terrified of anyone becoming more powerful. In such an instance the PTS isn't going to get anywhere trying to handle the person. The answer is to sever the connection.”

“PTSness and Disconnection”, September 10, 1983.

4 Counterfeit Dreams remains one of the best accounts by a former members of his time inside and is also available as a book.

LA Press Conference 2: Jeff Hawkins' Speech

Jeff Hawkins, a 35-veteran of Scientology, focussed on the question what draws people to the movement – and why, despite the abuse they suffer, it is so hard to leave.

Jeff Hawkins was introduced as a 35-year veteran of Scientology who had worked alongside the movement’s leader, David Miscavige, and had been a repeated target of his violence.

But Hawkins has told that story elsewhere: this time, he focussed on another aspect of Scientology: what draws people in and why it is so difficult to leave.[1]

Hawkins started by outlining the obstacles he had overcome just to attend the LA press conference, with his fellow ex-members of Scientology Sea Organization.

Soon after committing to the event he had been subpoenaed on the doorstep of his home in Portland, Oregon to appear before Scientology’s lawyers for a deposition. The date and time of the deposition: February 12, 10:00 am – the same as the press conference.

“And I thought, ‘Oh, that's a coincidence – not!’”

And when had decided to quit Scientology, because he had chosen to rout out in the manner approved by the movement, he had been subjected to three months of what Scientology called “security checks”.

This, he said, was when they put you on the e-meter, the device used in Scientology’s auditing, or therapy sessions – except this time it was not being used for therapy. This time it was an interrogation.

“…they ask you, ‘What are your crimes? What have you done? What crimes do you have against David Miscavige?’ On and on and on and on. And they just have you confess to anything and everything.

“This literally went on for three months until they felt that they had enough dirt on me to show that they could shut me up if I decided to speak out. And they've tried that.”

When he gave an interview to a reporter in Portland, he said, they contacted the journalist in a bid to discredit him, speaking of “horrible crimes”.

The material they gave the journalist had come straight out of his supposedly confidential confessional folders, said Hawkins.

“And that's what they do to people. They take their private confessional folders and they'll take anything they've confessed to, and they'll use it to try to shut them up.”

Other elements in the routing out procedure had also been designed to make sure he never spoke out, he said. For after all, he has spent his last 15 years in Scientology working at the International Base in Hemet, California, alongside Miscavige and other senior executives.

“…before they would allow me to leave the church, I had to sit in a room with a bunch of lawyers and sign forms, sign a lot of legal documents saying that I would never, never reveal what went on at Scientology's International Base.”

It was all videotaped and no doubt looked very official, he said. But he added: “…what they don't tell you is that there was a burly security guard standing just out of camera range, ready to take me back to the International Base and lock me up again if I didn't cooperate.”

So he cooperated. He signed everything they gave him so he could leave.

And yet, since leaving the movement, he has been one of the most vocal critics of the violence and abuse at the International Base.

“And the most common question I get, which Marc [Headley, the previous speaker] talked about a bit, is: ‘Why didn't you leave? Why didn't you just get up and leave?’”

For Hawkins, this was a key question, the answer to which went right to the heart of Scientology’s philosophy

First, he made it clear that he would not have joined in the first place if Scientology had not have something to offer.

“…I spent 35 years with it, so obviously there were some things I found good about it, to stay that long. And I was very enthusiastic about it in the beginning.

“This idea of communicating to others and helping others and helping the planet and so forth – that all appealed to me, being an idealistic young man.”

But as his involvement deepened, he got caught up in Scientology’s underlying beliefs, which had major implications for how he saw the world.

The promise of immortality

“… above all of that is really this idea of immortality. In the view of Scientology, this is a prison planet and everybody is trapped on this planet…” he explained.

“One is condemned to live life after life after life not knowing anything, in complete darkness and ignorance – and this is supposedly the trap that we're in.”

Scientologists believe that by moving up what the founder, L. Ron Hubbard, called the Bridge to Total Freedom, one acquires greater spiritual awareness and power, Hawkins added.

“…one is supposed to be fully conscious and aware, and one is supposed to be able to then live life after life remembering everything that went on in your previous lives.

“And this is what they mean when they talk about ‘total freedom’ or ‘your eternity’, and so forth and so on.”

For a Scientologist, this question of immortality, of escaping the state of ignorance and acquiring total freedom was a deadly serious activity, said Hawkins.

He quoted a key Hubbard document, “Keeping Scientology Working”, to give an idea of just how seriously Scientologists took their mission.

We're not playing some minor game in Scientology. It isn't cute or something to do for lack of something better. The whole agonized future of this planet, every Man, Woman and Child on
it, and your own destiny for the next endless trillions of years depend on what you do here and now with and in Scientology.

“When I was a Scientologist, well, I believed that. I believed this was serious and that the fate of the planet was at stake, and so forth.”

That meant that the greatest fear of any Scientologist was not that they would lose their friends or their family, he said. The main fear was “that they'll lose what they call ‘their eternity.’”

He read from a Suppressive Person declare, a Scientology document officially declaring a former member an outcast: “‘He will never, never, ever again, which I promise you, in any life, ever again, receive any auditing’ – which is the counselling – ‘or ever have a chance to get out of this trap…”

This was a death threat – but to the nth degree, said Hawkins.

“If you believe in Scientology’s belief system, this is a serious threat. They've done the mafia one better. It's not just… a death threat. It's like dying over and over and over again.

The flipside of the promise of total freedom then was the threat of having it all taken away: Scientology’s equivalent of eternal damnation.

Hawkins no longer believed that this threat was real; but for a true believer on the inside there could be nothing worse than the prospect of being cast out.

“So the most important thing for Scientology to maintain control over their people is to keep that belief system intact,” said Hawkins.

The power of these beliefs helped explain why people were ready to follow the rules regarding handing or disconnecting from a critic of Scientology, said Hawkins – and whatever the movement claimed, this policy was enforced on its members, he added.

Control, not freedom

“The irony is that the Church of Scientology says that it's all about freedom, but ultimately, it's really about control. And the further up you go, the more controlled you are.”

Having worked 15 years at the International Base with fellow Sea Org members, senior executives and Miscavige himself, he had experienced an even deeper level of control.

“The place is surrounded by razor wire fences. They've got cameras and motion sensors. There's no way that you can get out of there… without touching off these sensors or alerting the security guards who patrol the grounds, and so forth.

“And if you want to leave that Hemet compound, you have to get permission from your boss and from your boss's boss, and so forth, to be able to leave the compound. You can't just walk in and out. You have to have an okay.

“All letters in are opened – which is against federal law, but they do it anyway. If you get a letter from your parents, they open it first before it goes to you, and if it contains anything critical of Scientology, well, you're hauled in and, you know, you say, ‘Well, you have to handle your parents or disconnect,’ and so forth. And when you write a letter out, same thing – it gets censored.

Then there were the physical punishments, with people getting thrown in the lake or forced to run around the buildings, he said. And then there were the beatings.[2]

“I was personally beat up on five separate occasions by the head of Scientology, David Miscavige, who is supposed to be the leader.”

And with that, Hawkins returned to the original question: why hadn’t he just left?

“Well, it was the carrot and stick. I didn't want to lose my eternity… I still had my faith, even though I was being physically and mentally abused. But I finally said, ‘I don't care! I don't care if I'm damning my soul for eternity or whatever this means. I don't care.’”

So he left, and Scientology’s disconnection policy ensured that as a result he lost his wife and all his friends and family on the inside.

“And I had to go out with a few dollars in my pocket at age 58 and start a whole new life from scratch…

“But I have a lot of friends who are still there. They are still in Scientology. They are still at the Int Base. And if I were able to get them one message, I would tell them this: that leaving Scientology doesn't mean losing your eternity. It means gaining your freedom.”

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[1] For a detailed account of his time in Scientology see his own website, Counterfeit Dreams. I have also told his story here, in the opening chapters of the section Violence and Abuse in the Sea Org. See in particular, Accusing Miscavige, The Case against Miscavige and Jeff Hawkins’ Story. For the video of Jeff Hawkins’ speech (and of all the other speeches at the LA press conference), see Mark Bunker’s round-up at Xenutv here.

[2] All the points Hawkins made about conditions at the Int. Base have been confirmed by other former Scientologists who worked there: by Marc Headley in his postings as Blownforgood to the Operation Clambake message board and in his book Blown for Good; by John Peeler in interviews for this website (see Life at the Base) and by previous Int Base defectors, such as Andre Tabayoyon. These conditions have to some extent been duplicated at other Sea Org units, such as the one at Clearwater in Florida (see Abuse in the Sea Org).